Funny how when everyone is winding down and readying themselves for their two months of vacation, I feel at my most inspired. I want to spend at least four hours – plan big! – writing everyday; to finish reading a book every two weeks; to go to an art exhibition every week; to try a new restaurant once a week; to write an opinion piece once a week; in between finding ways to keep my children entertained – whilst still letting them use their own imagination – and whilst all the while pondering the insanity of the northern hemisphere’s two month long summer vacation.
I am setting no lofty goals of what I want to have achieved by 2016, or 2017, or…you get the picture. This time it is more measured steady steps on how I want to pace my writing; my undertaking to get fit again; a promise to myself to read more (of everything); but an even smaller though more significant goal: to be kinder to myself. It is often very easy to look at my life, evaluate, and for some reason since becoming a trailing/traveling/stay-at-home spouse and mom, come up short in my achievements. It does not help that in the mere definition of my role – no matter its importance to the people in my life – I have not ‘leant in’. Sorry for having let the side down there Sheryl.
So I am leaning in in other ways: being present in my children’s presence. iPhone, iPad, TV – I am going to have to share my time with you for a while; I think we should see other people; it’s not you, it’s me. I am holding myself even more accountable when it comes to my writing and to delivering on the goals I set myself. I am taking stock and planning and not overwhelming myself with the endless non-ticked off items on that list created more than twenty years ago on the things I should have achieved by this point in my life. I will get to it.
Wishing you all a restful vacation, and hoping to keep posting as and when that inspiration hits – which I am hoping will be more than it has been.